My heart was broken

                          i swore not to love again

                         Dark clouds appear in each and every day

                         Loneliness and Sadness are filling me up all

                        the way.

                         I prayed each and every night

                        For the courage and gain strength with all my

                        might

                       To carry on with my life

                      And heal my broken heart stabbed with a knife

                           One night my prayer was answered

                    My knight in shining armor came and saved me from

                   misery

                   He made me whole again

                   Swept me off my feet

                  Loved me so dearly

                            My dark clouds are gone

                           I felt like i was in heaven

                           i never felt so happy

                            Everytime I’m with him

                           I feel so loved and special

                              Months passed and everything was so perfect

                              This time i thought that it would be forever

                              He loves me and I love him too

                              No one can break us in two

                                  But like they say that nothing lasts forever

                                   A ranging storm came into his life

                                  My knight in shining armor was not that

                                  strong inside

                                   Change start to happen

                                      It’s like he bit the poisoned apple

                                 A poisoned apple that poisoned him inside

                    My knight in shining armor became a cruel monster

                    And thunder stormed him and our relationship

                         I tried to save everything we had, including him

                   i guess things just can’t be the way as it was before

                    I’m down with my last card

                   I’m putting my hands up, I surrender

                               I loved him dear till this day

                             Now here i am again torn up inside

                           I just wish that my knight will come back soon

                          Save me from this shattered empty broken heart

                            of mine.

Kristine Abigail V. Cruz

i composed this poem last Saturday, September 20, 2008. i forgot that we have an assignment in my english class that we have to create a poem. I created this poem not more than 10 minutes! I put my heart in this work and it’s something special for someone special i’ve known! i guess just what he said change is a constant thing here in this world. I miss him so much! I love him so much! Tomorrow will be specail but i wont be expecting! im pourin my heart out thanks for readin

Baby…

If ever you are reading this i wish you good health and happiness! i’ll always be here for you no matter what! through good or bad, thick or thin. I love you and you know that! i miss you so much…  

JUne 22, 2008!

Hey guys! good evening! oh yeah! my heart is happy and i am really happy! heheh! today is me and my höney’s day! sadly we didnt see each other due to Frank the typhoon! well,, i just wanna share how happt i am! today i talked with my bestfriend who is at new york! i also got the chance to talk to my lil sisie which is my boifriend’s sister! plus what made me happier is the message that my man sent me! it really touched my heart and this time i cried again due to tears of joy! i just so love this day! i thank God for olweiz being here for me and answering all my prayers and for listening to all the thingies i wanna share! i so love God! i love my höneybabyb0ö im glad that we are going strong! im just so glad that it didnt take that lobg for him to realize thingies! and i love him so coz he appreciated all my efforts and me! now i am happier! im gonna doze off now coz my back is achin already! i love my God! i love my baby! i love my family! i love you all! mwaaahmmm! XOXO! God bless us all! may we all of us be happy because we all deserve to! GOodnightie! sweetdreamz! mwaaahmmmmM! XOXO! God bless us all!

weee,, well my day went well! thank God it did! early this mownin the moment i woke up i had this strange feelin of mine that somethingie wont be good and nice!  and so it did! well im just glad that it changed in the afternoon! i was happie but the feeling i had before, the happiness inside me that i used to feel before geee i dunno! still i am happy though! i just hope that things will go back the way it was before! i just hope things will be better and go back the way it was! i am happy but i was happier with what was with before! eneweiz maybe you guys are getting confused to whatever i was typin here! there will be some who will understand what i am typing here! eneweiz! my day was fun! i spend it with chel and  i enjoyed playing with him! i enjoyed shooting some balls! hahah! i won! so happy! the thing i enjoyed so much is when we played the deal or no deal game! we choosed the briefcase number 8! we won  70 tickets for it which is next to the biggest amount which is a hundred! i also love it when he shoot the last three balls which signifies I Love You which i failed to do! ampf! my bad! eneweiz! another thingie is when we ate at TOkyo Tokyo! just to make me happy! so sweet! we also watched When Love begins which was kinda related! eventhough he did disappoint me and disappoints me at times i still love him!well i  enjoyed this day! but im missin all the stuffs that we used to do back when we we’re still in 1st year 2nd sem! that was the best! and i am missin everythingie! i just wish that everything will stabilize and slowly go back to the way it was before! i know that every relationship goes through these challenges eventhough i wanna surrender sometimes i am just glad that there are some who clears my crazy mind! so foolish of me! we will survive this and my baby tells me that we are gonna fight so we will and are going to! yeah! i’ll just try to understand everything coz it’s my time to do so! just like what my gal pal told me! i just hope things go better soon! soon enough! well!  that’s all for now! this is such a whaaattta day for me! i love you hön! mwaaahmmmM! XOXO! God bless us all! 

i wanna sleep but i dont wanna sleep yet! how ironic right?! i dunno! i miss my hön but i dont wanna be obvious about it coz  i just dunno! im starting to be how i was before with him! like when we just starting with our relationship i dont wanna tell him that i already love him! though my big mouth spoiled my secret! wahlah! i love you too juts popped out of my mouth at Magat St.! hahah! i can still remember that! i dont know exactly the date probably the time it’s around 7 somethingie! gosh! im not that obvious that i am missing him! hahahhh! eneweiz enough of him! im still in the "TAMPO" mode! i dunno i am feeling that thingie eventhough im not suppose to feel it anymore! goshie! i am so whatever! eneweiz,, i am checking and savin so many friendster layouts and i dunno why am i even saving everything that i like to think that i only have one account oh plus me and my Hön’s account! i was suppose to look for pink piggies but then i have saved so many couple lover backgrounds thingie! arggh! i am not that obvious! shocks! well,, we are soon to hit our 0.7th month anniversary! i dunno what will happen! i am pretty poor so i guess i wont have anything to give him! eneweiz i’ll just think of something special to do or create out of my brilliant mind! well,,, hey reader! i forgot to say hi! how are you?! well,, if you woukd ask me i am pretty confused of so many things! yeah! i dunno ! well, the rain stopped! so sad coz i love the rain and i wanna sleep knowing that it’s raining outside! haaY! so wonderful! yeah! so relaxing! eneweiz,,, i am just so thankful that God is by my side to help me carry on with stuffs! I so LOVE my God!  Love God above all things! yeah! i am feeling spiritual here! hey dude! do you watch hana kimi the original?! well,, i so love that series! i really feel the so called "KILIG" feeling and im LOvin it! yeah! haaaY! so sweeeet!  guys i am so confused right please pray for me! thanks alot! i miss my HöneyBabyB0ö! huhuhuhuhu! i am starting to adjust some things between us like seeing each other more often unlike our everyday before! argh! stop with the used to be’s! eneweiz,, i want to enjoi this thing so called life! but how can you enjoi life when me plus the Filipino people are feeling the crisis now! i hate the stupid greedy to the highest level government that we have right now! they are all suckers! i hope that one day those corrupt officials on the throne would get a piece of their shit and experience thei Karma and pay the price of the many cries of the Filipino people! shocks! how did i shift this topics i am talking about from my fs layouts to my boifrend and now to the government we have! ei guys spread the word to finish the food on their tables! it’s not nice to not finishing meals because many people are experiencing so much of the crisis that is very visible in our country! another thingie that crossed my mind is how come that there is a rice shortage in the country! then i figured it out Arroyo just wants to cover up the ZTE scandal! fuck that President she is spending the people’s money in building her mansion in of the islands in Boracay which is known just by some! SHE IS A GREEDY BITCH! eneweiz! i’m hitting the red lights on! i dont wanna sleep in an annoyed mode! eneweiz! that’s all for now! i wanna sleep now! thanks for reading! i love you all! mwaaaahmmmm! XOXO! GOD BLESS US ALL and may shower more of his blessings to usand to those who need it to0! More blessings to us all! I LOVE YOU! mwaahhhmmm!

              It’s about 3 am kinda sick but not yet sleepy! fuck! eneweiz,, i miss my late night blogging! well,, so far i missed so many stuff to type about here! first i have a new man in my life! i love him so and i want you know! hahah! im the proud girlfriend of my boifriend! haha! my boifriend is my dear Wyntchel! hahahah! well so far so good we are making our way to our 7th month! next stuff that i wanna type in is the vacation i had! i went to Zambales and Pangasinan. It was indeed a outing to remember! so many new experiences like jumping of the cliff! going to Zambales’ Putipot Island and Pangasinan’s Hundred Islands! SUN TAN! wee! i love the long drives except that part wherein my ass starts to hurt! i love hangin out with my bestbuds and friends! my ever gimikada on the go! heheheh! the seashore made me miss my baby so much! the starie starie sky and the full moon! reminiscing our walks to my house or just simply the everyday walkathons underneath the full moon  or just the plain sky and moon and the starie starie sky and looking at the three stars that i am claiming to be as Kristine Abigail Cruz! hahahah! well,,, i dunno if i am still in my senses i am just typin and typin! expressin whatever idea that pops out into my mind! well,, i am kinda sad right now coZ two of whom i love so dear and treated like my real lil sisters, my höney’s lil sisters, so sad that they had to migrate to Australia! i will really miss them! super as in! they have been so nice to me and really made me feel like im part of the Claudio family! plus they are super sweet! haaay! i will finish my Nursing course so that one day we’ll see each other again! well ,,,, haaay! inhale! exhale! it makes me cry again! huhuhu! my hanky is too wet to wipe off my tears! my gosh i’ve been crying an ocean here! my fone is screwed again! fuck that how will i be able to send and receive messages! grrrR! eneweiz,, how’s it goin reader?! well hope everything is cool with you! me i am really feelin cold right now! just like what the song says "i got an ice box where in my heart it should be?! im so cold! im so cold! im so cold!" waahah! enough of my singin it might rain! heheheheh! wellmm eneweiz if ever one of those who asked for my number is reading this blog! sorie! i dont give my number to strangers! so sorie bout that! hope you understand! enweiz! i dunno what’s wrong with my computer i can’t check my accout i have to go through a lot of stuff just to  get a piece of access trough this website like this blog that i am typin right now! well,,, i miss my dad and in a few weeks he’s coming home !weee! chocolates galore again! i miss my daddy! he is like my first boifrend ever and still is !ooops! a two timer on the loose! joke! For real and For good! Aint foolin nobody! coz it is bad! Very bad! eneweiz i have so many things in my head and in my heart! well,, so much for that my hands are kinda tired! well right now i am blogging and taking a candy quiz! this one’s good! bout sleeping habits! i think my insomia is coming back for some reason! haay well,,,the result here says that my answer are mostly A’s and it also says that i am a

You answered mostly a’s!

Zombie Freak. You underestimate the benefits that sleep has to offer. Sleep builds your immune system — a force that’ll help battle pesky skin infections and sickness. So grab your pillows tonight and start having a steady relationship with your good old bed. 

good one! just what i needed!

oh here another quiz!

Will Your Love Last?

School’s over and summer might mean separating. Can your relationship go the distance?

Last Chance
We’re not fortune-tellers. But we do know this: "Separation might help you define your feelings," suggest Elizabeth Buckner, PH.D., a clinical psychologist in Weston Massachusetts, who’s counseled dozens of couples through breakups and make-ups. "You’ll find out if you really miss him or not if you felt some relief in your new freedom." Long-distance relationships need a lot of work, and now is a good time to decide if your guy’s worth it. "You need patience and a willingness not to take the easy way out," says Jenny. "The couple has to agree that if the relationship is really good, then it’s worth keeping it going." Trust your instincts, and don’t try to prolong something that was flawless as a fling, but has no chance of becoming a forever thing.

nicie nicie! I LOVE THIS QUIZZES!

How Grown-up are You?

Age is not a factor. Knowledge is not a factor. Rather, being a grown-up is all about the decisions you make. So, just how grown-up are you?

You answered mostly a’s!

Although it is really admirable for you to know what the important thing in life are (i.e., honesty, responsibility, and integrity), don’t forget that you only have a very short time to have fun, be crazy, wacky, and fearless. So act your age! Sooner or later, you will find yourself thinking about the future, working, and actually preferring to stay at home rather than party with your friends. Yup, it’s pretty hard to imagine yourself chilling at home with a cup of coffee and your favorite book, but you will get to that point. And when you do, wouldn’t it be great to say you’ve been there, done that? Live life to the fullest while you can.

PerfecT! well time for me to sleep now !SO much for those quizzes! take care olweiz! i love my höneybabyboo! i miss my friends! i love you all! take care olweiz! mwaaahmmmm! XOXO! God bless us all! tahtah! SMooooochies! ^_^

To all who came

THANK YOU FOR SHARING THAT WONDERFUL NIGHT WITH ME!

February 06,2008

February 09, 2008-The PINK Party

i so love evrything! got to go now! i need some rest cause the party ended at around 1 am and i slept at 3am! hehehe! got to go! Just sharin a milestone in my life! i am so happpppyyY!!!!

take care olweiz! LOVE YOU ALL! God Bless us all!!!!!